you can sleep when you're dead.

i'm tired. . . but never too tired to clear my thoughts.

talking to him usually helps , but i have no clue where he is or what he's doing .

i just came inside from helping with the leaves.
i should have taken pictures for this post , but i left my phone inside.

i had my ipod earphone in one ear most of the time , so i could listen to music & whatever mom had to say.

she said that i need to show my dad attention.
-sure.

then she tied that into the talk my boyfriend had with me recently about my relationship with my dad.

then she asked me if my boyfriend knew that i was celibate & if he knew that he now has to be.
i had to turn away from her discreetly to keep from laughing rather obviously.
i simply responded by saying , "yeah mom , whatever."
she told me not to be dumb when it comes to guys.
& i couldn't help but to think "isn't it a little too late for that?" but whatever.
she asked me a few other random questions about him, questions that i can no longer recall.

after being on a "5 day break" i'm not ready for school to resume.
i'm just ready for winter break.

i didn't touch any of my school related things during the break. i'm THAT tired of it all.

tomorrow i have to read this book called "the scarlet letter" , in order to be prepared for the "surprise" on tuesday. i really dislike that particular teacher , by the way.

ever heard of the phrase "you can sleep when you're dead" ?
well that phrase is one that i choose not to live by. i wanna sleep now! i feel so lazy.

i've missed two sociology classes. i wonder what i've missed. hmm.

anywho * i come inside to a text from him that said :
"i think not seeing each other for these next couple of weeks will do us well . . ."
& i'm like damn. i'm over here thinkin' about how much i'm gonna miss you & then you think that a break from seeing each other will do us some good?
i mean , i guess.