"i'm not even gonna lie to you."

i can't think . . . my thoughts are scattered & can't seem to come together .
with everything you just said in mind , i can't help but to wonder what the hell you're trying to conclude.
do you wanna take things slow & take a step back ? or do you wanna continue on in the relationship we're building?

when i told you that i didn't want things to change , that included putting you under pressure.
before we became 'official' i took - the things that are worrying you now - into consideration.
*the distance , the age difference , commitment , etc. *
but you were so sure at the time about what you wanted ,
sure enough to the point where i didn't think you'd reconsider. . .

i don't know , maybe i'm blowing this whole thing out of proportion.
i have a habit of "taking things the wrong way"
something inside me is causing me to react this way.
some kind of emotional guard that wants to keep me from experiencing future regret.

i don't want to have rushed into this relationship , causing problems for the future when I could have (currently) taken the liberty of suggesting that we *do take things slower, neglecting the relationship titles.
but then on the other hand , i don't want to do all of that.
at first i thought that we rushed into this without completely thinking ,
but that thought was immediately pushed towards the back of my mind.

i just don't want you regretting anything either.

again , i don't know . . .
my head hurts.

i guess i'll go along with whatever you decide to do ,

we'll figure somethin' out.