fighting to stay awake requires more energy then i thought.
i really really felt like skipping all four of my classes today.
in the end, only one was skipped.
geez, i think I'm turning into the stereotypical college student.
right now, I'm sitting in the computer lab, combining these PowerPoint's all onto one Microsoft document, so that i can have a cheat sheet for the exam i completely forgot about.
the exam that must be taken today.
I'm stressing as usual, but right now, I'm feeling careless - as if this exam isn't even worth my stressing. according to my professor , it's not.
i still want to do well, although i never do.
kia's suggestions didn't work. however, the soda she bought me did keep me from falling asleep in class.
*thanks akia.*
my mind needs to be freed. . . from everything.
today's the perfect day for that.
& once i get this exam over & done with, i have later on to look forward to.
i love spending time with him.
in a way, he makes me feel as if nothing even matters.
& that's how i like it.
i have a song for you by the way *because i know you're reading this* :)
it's perfect for you & explains how i feel
PERFECTLY. the truth.mp3 - india arie
on another note,
my body is like crying out to me.
I'm in pain and still in the process of getting over a cold.
earlier, my uncle and i were hit by an inattentive driver.
*i had to backspace what i originally wrote in reference to the driver, i felt that it would be more "appropriate" to say inattentive.
his truck wasn't damaged. i think her car was though.
i could read her lips as she told him not to worry about the damages done to her car.
it was HER own fault.
God saved my life seriously, because as usual I wasn't wearing a seat belt.
the only remaining reminder that i have of the "accident" is my aching neck and upper back.
i'm trying to get lost in my music, since this lab is relatively quiet.
i'm listening to the song that sparked our first conversation.
alright.mp3 - ledisi
here are a few lyrics from the song that identically match how i feel right now.
"i just wanna run & hide, but i don't have the time to cry & it's alright. many thoughts are runnin' through my head, it's alright. wishing to be somewhere else but here & it's alright. i can't wait to see your face. i need a smile & your embrace & i'm alright."
he's leaving me for the holiday.
tomorrow until saturday.
i'll be left with my thoughts -
the ones that won't seem to go away.
i love him :)
i would write more but i have to get back to working.
tahtahfornow.
be back later.
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