expiration.

stress , & it's absolute ugliness is obsessed . . .with me.
he has become a part of me and i can't seem to rid myself of him.
as hard as i try,
thoughts that cause me to worry firmly plant themselves
in the center of my mind.
sleep , has become my best friend . . .
even though i only give her a few hours of my time.

there's so much going on , & yet - at the same time - not enough going on .
i can say there has been a sudden decrease in the amount of spare time that I have to lie around thinking about things that are insignificant .
that's an improvement .
i want to get to the point where I don't have time to procrastinate or waste time .
I'm getting there .

the weather's changing ,
and so are the people around me.
all of a sudden , others have seemed to notice
their friends turning their backs &
showing the truest of colors.

true friends are revealing themselves.
i can count all of mine on one hand . . .
and one hand only.

it's a new season ,
and therefore
seasonal friends have expired .

i learned a few days ago that your very best friend
can be your worst enemy.
the person that you tell the most to
the one you spend the most time with
can use everything you've ever said against you
- to their advantage - .
honest opinions and harsh judgements unfold in the presence of anger.


life is difficult .
i just wish there could be that someone
that you'd get through it all with.