Life goes on.. (Unforgettable memories).

Feelin' sick. & the fact that I can't seem to get you off my mind, makes me feel even worse. It's hard to stop caring and maybe, even stop loving someone that's so careless;
someone who doesn't care about you anymore, or in turn love you back..
With my situation, there are too many memories that were shared between you and I that play in my mind daily. Too many to just forget. I don't know what it is about you that makes me still think about you often. You hurt me, lied to me, and did me wrong,
and yet, my dumbass still loves you. It's impossible to just stop loving someone that you loved dearly. Something like that, takes time.
Sometimes I wonder If you really honestly knew what love meant when you first said you loved me. I also think that you just really liked me, if that. I'm not sure If you ever loved me. Because If you did, then everything you said wouldn't contradict how things are now.
We don't talk, & all you seem to want me for is sex.
Before, you mentioned that you couldn't stand not seeing my face everyday, which made your whole plan of breaking my heart and never speaking to me again, go all wrong.
I shouldn't be on the verge of crying right now. Wasting tears on someone who doesn't matter anymore. Someone who might matter, but shouldn't anymore..
I deserve better, but in some ways, other guys can't compare to some aspects of you.
Some things you did, (regardless if they were genuine or completely part of your "little plan")
were memorable. Thing that made me happy.
If only you weren't such an asshole,
I could see being with you for a good amount of time.
But now, I have to go into furthering myself to get over you completely & move on..
Which is very much unlike me.
I hate forcing myself to not think about someone as much as I want to.

Along that note,
I think that so far, the moral of this year is that people come and go.
That's a part of life.
What doesn't kill me, will only make me stronger.
The people that were closest to me, are no longer.
People that I thought would never hurt me, did.
People are so artificial nowadays.
But, life goes on..