inner circle.

everything you say has the equality to bullshit.
go ahead and ruin the rest of my night with your careless, confusing tactics
& same 'ol argumentative ways.
in spite of everything I had told myself about you
during my period of attempting to understand you
& your way of thinking,
I still sense this miniature amount
of the greater love i once had for you.
what's left of it, is still some what there.
but if the only part of you that youre willing to give me
is sexual, then I don't want it.
& if the part of you that I once felt I deserved,
the part I miss, the part that connected with
the part of me that fell in love with you,
is gone; is hers now,
then i guess I have to accept that,
& step out of this inner circle that keeps you going in
and out of my life.
the same circle that leds me back in this same situation
each & every time.