1492.

bored.
yet another sunday, basically gone to waste,
& now i have nothing to do.
mom wants me to walk with her,
but i only feel like walking alone, or not at all.
im really full,
mimi's cafe was rather fulfilling.
mall today for a sec,
OldNavy had a 1492 sale.
got a few things.

by just thinking about it,
im currently annoyed with this point in my life,
i want something great to happen,
i wanna meet someone amazing.
when is the climax part of my life going to take place?
i want to be extraordinarily happy with life, and everything it contains.

im tired of these past screw-ups,
none of my relationships have ever gone right.
and im still in a daze of confusion
about what to expect from this current one.
i don't know why i'm the type of person that needs reassurement
about the things that confuse me.
because with him sometimes im sure
that at least some of my expectations will be met.
& other times i remain confused.

"ill never give myself to another, the way i gave myself to you."
-"rehab."
i see your face in my head,
as this song plays.
along with seeing your face, I can hear your promises,
your lies, your everythings.
it's amazing how many promises you broke,
& how many false truths you told.
oh well, im trying not to care about you anymore.