couldn't care to know ,

my body,
from my neck on down aches with pain .
i feel so.. weak .
my mind is working overtime
to process every thought it constantly produces .
I'm not sure if I feel overwhelmed with everything
at this present time in my life .
too much is never enough , i guess .
i still can't figure out why I like running away from my worries ,
using small getaways as a chance to forget about everything i'll return to
once I get back.
I guess "freedom" feels better than "carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders" .
I'm trying, I'm trying .

Tomorrow,
majority of my day is going to be spent with "family"
the ones I don't know all that well ,
family I couldn't care to know .
The ones I hardily talk to .
I'm only going for the food.