Possible impossibilities.

It seems merely impossible for me
to change the subject of my writings
from you,
to something or someone else.
Looking back on what I call
the recent past,
I've noticed that your name
particularly,
has been in my mouth
a lot lately.
& to oppose my expectations,
no one seems to be tired of hearing about you.

I can't recall any friend of mine
that's stuck by me
as long as you have .
No friend has ever left me
with the reassurance that they weren't
going anywhere,
like you have.
As comforting as it sounds,
I don't have to worry about losing you.

My heart & mind are conflicting one another.
My heart's saying that "I may never find another one
like you, for me."
& My mind's saying that I could put a
good friendship in jeopardy;
That we should just remain friends,
& that things should stay the way they are now.

It's funny,
I never thought I'd feel this way.
Until change took it's toll.