3/4 of me is left now,

last night was pretty horrible.
don't wanna talk too much about it. =/

i was just thinking about how i'm too afraid to be myself.
i guess i'm just afraid of being unaccepted?
but that sounds stupid.
i like my differences, i'm just working on showing that.
i shouldn't care about the opinions of others.
Right?
*I just contradicted myself, asking for an opinion.

i just rapidly walked 6 miles.
my parents think i'm "overdoing it".

i think that writing is my best way of communication,
that way people will listen to what I have to say.
with so much to share,
i have very few listeners.
some that i may be unaware of.

ilovemybestfriend.
even though it feels like 3/4 of me
is left now,
due to the "changes" in our relationship
that's still my other half.
i don't know if he knows it though. lol.

i know he's not gonna read this anyway,
so I can say as much as I want.

i really want April to hurry up and get here.

for some reason, my appetite is "M.I.A" ,
for the past few days, it's been that way.