obstacle course.

There are soo many distractions out here man.
& everyday, it seems like my life is one big obstacle course.
& my future's the end.
my goal's and dreams are at the finish line.

well... im at the highschool part of the obstacle course.
the toughest part, i think.
that's where the distractions come in.
& there isn't any such thing as a stable, good, honest relationship in high school.
(in my opinion)
like, college is different.
by then, i'll know what i want, & i'll be working hard to get there.
i'll have ONE boyfriend, that i'll most likely be in love with.
& no one else will matter.
it'll make sense then.
but now? with all these birds flockin'?
nuuh. no good.
ima just dodge em.
& other things, like people.
dodgin' them too.
i thought just focusing on the one guy that i love right now
would be enough to help me by pass these birds.
but he doesn't get it.
*scratches head*
& friends?? i wanna see who's gonna last.
by college, i mean.
& maalik talkin' bout ima stop callin' him once school starts.
& i told him it'll be vice versa.
i was right.
he's slippin'.
I got six minutes left on this computer til my session ends.
meaning I got six minutes to vent some more.

I'm not gonna say anything negative.
Time is just moving really slowly.

that's how i feel.