i still feel you.

after about a while,
i decided to take a lil peek at your blogspot.
the place where your heart used to & still does speak to mine.
i knew there would be something on there.
that would explain how you felt about the "US" that is somewhat non-existent at this present time.
many promises were made between you & i,
for instance, like the one thats fresh in my mind.
"im GROUNDED when it comes to you, i'm not going anywhere."
it's true as you stated, you can never make plans for too far in the future because you never know the events coming before.
& now you're not here.
but somehow, i still feel you.

is it true to follow your heart? regardless of what your mind's telling you to do?
right now, my heart's telling me to forgive you, & start brand new.
but my mind still recalls what happened, & is worried that it'll happen again.

i wanna start new,
but first i want to talk to you.

but im realizing that maybe,
you didn't want this to work because you weren't aware of what would happen in the future?
idk.

i can't explain how you feel.
i can only speak for me.