long day;

today has been incredibly long.
my only true companion right now is the bed im about to sleep in,
getting EVERYTHING off of my mind,
and just taking time to relieve all of this from me.

today was basically: jessica's. uncle lamont's. alisa's. PGplaza. Pentagon City. Alisa's again. Jessica's. Walmart. Shoppin'Center. Home.

i got what i needed and thats what's most important.
umm, yea. today, i kinda did somethin' i knew i would regret,
but felt that honesty is better than keeping any type of secret.

& now i feel like shit,
because the one person i love so much,
is like upset with me & disappointed or whatever.

imeen, i didn't think of what happened as somethin' to regret or anything like that.
it just , idk, happened.
i expected the reaction i got today, & i handled it better than i usually would have.

i don't think there's any time to explain this long story to him,
cuz he won't wanna hear the whole truth.
i'll just see what happens... i guess.

whoever said, "these are the best years of your life."
wasn't correct so far according to my record of my life.
& living life to the fullest is sort of cliche'.
because; life involves choices & decisions.
everything has a boundary.
choices have limits.
living life to the fullest would basically mean going beyond limits.
idon'tknow.

im trying to remain positive & stuff right now.
but its sort of hard.
whatev; i'll just focus on something else for now.