back to reality ,.

just returned from my three day vacation .
it was rather interesting , spending three days with my bestfriend
& his peeps ,.
& now ..
it's over , it's all over .

now i'm back to reality .

summer school starts tomorrow .
do i wanna go ? no .
twenty days of being stuck in the same school I have to return to in august .
an unwanted , unanticipated reunion .
& it's not like i'm being forced to go to summer school ,
like i'm dumb or something ,
i asked to go .
yea, my dumb self , asked to spend twenty days out of my summer
taking a class just to get ahead.
Mon-Thurs from 8a.m. to 2p.m.
maybe it won't be so bad ,.
six hours of science , four days a week .
it's funny because that's one WHOLE day. [6hoursx4days=24hours]

last night ,
talking to him ,
i sounded like some mental case ..
& now I feel like one ,
all over again .

he says that my life's intense ,
& that some of my problems are self - inflicted .
well , he didn't actually say it that way
it was more like ,
"you cause some of your own problems ."

part of my current problem is what I attempted to explain to my sister.
I'd rather not say what it is .
I'd only sound pathetic .

i feel so ..
solitary .