love, or something in comparison .

i've never felt like this ,
well , maybe just a little.

but never completely.
i've never experienced a situation like this.

everywhere i turn,
i see the same 'ol thing.
love,
or something in comparison.
& i can't help
but to think ,
"everyone but me."

it seems impossible ,
for someone like me.
& maybe that explains my situation.
i have no idea what it could be.

i blame myself.
i blame time.
i blame other people -the ones from my past-.

it's kind of embarrassing.
that i haven't found that one,
that could be there ,
a little longer than temporary.
that friend ,
that closer companion,.

& i haven't figured out why,
out of all the fish in the sea,
i can't seem to find mine.

i'm not looking for a lifetime lover,
or a soul mate.
nah,
now that definitely takes time.
just someone
for right now.

i even stopped searching.
i gave up a while ago.
following the whole
"love will come to you" cliche .
& that only got me here.

if someone had any answers,
i'd be willing to listen.