confusion..

man oh man.
blogspot, i missed you.
now i can finally spill all these thoughts & things,
that i've been too scared to share with anyone else.
that's sad, i know.
that i can tell EVERYTHiNG to an "online diary".

right now,
im feeling the worst.
im so confused about this whole thing.
& last night just made it more confusing for me..
im doing the right thing.., that's how i feel..
but then why am i still confused???
sitting around waiting?
waiting for?... well, you know.
& then the reality was put into my mind.. by another,
"what if it never happens?"
i'm not gonna question that.

my bestfriend that's been M.I.A. for the past couple of months
just texted me.
saying that we need to plan a day together.
wow.

& then im getting mixed signals.?
i wanna believe that "I Know" but its hard..