<3 that's nonexistant?

people that read my blogs are gonna end up finding out alot about me. but i still don't think they'll fully understand me. no one does? i just feel so ugh right now. Like, im tired, but its my choice to stay up late which is easy. & sleeping in isn't as fulfilling anymore. I remember the days when I would have the biggest motivation to wake up & start my day with a smile. unless, i happen to see that my phone has received text messages or missed phone calls...which is always interesting. summer has been alright so far, but not everything i was hoping it would be. just yet.