a few thoughts ..

(personally, i think it's good to clear your head
before you go to sleep .
because in that way, you won't go to bed feeling like you're
still carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders.
you'll also wake up feeling much better
than you would if you still had pointless things on your mind.)
as today comes to an end,
i can only hope for a better tomorrow.
my tomorrow doesn't consist of much (as of right now) ,
except for a few things that of course, aren't set in stone .
the *cough* family & i , (mom & ..dad)
are supposed to be going to lunch together .
hopefully mom doesn't really try to pull the
"how about just you & your dad go?"
if that were the case , i'd pass.
rather quickly .
i had my mind set on going to ruby tuesday again
but I know how my dad feels about "sit down / menu" restaurants
& his preference for "all you can eat" ones.
I'd rather just order & pay for one dish
than pay buffet price for a gazillion calories.
if that makes sense.
i'm also going to try to partially finish the second book
in the "twilight series" . =)

my plan didn't fully succeed ,
because i got a text today.
oh well, at least i wasn't the first one to initiate that little conversation .

as far as another guy ,
a "friend"
i erased his number a minute ago.
so id purposely have no way of contacting him.
excluding the internet.
but what do i look like?
oh well , i at least gave off some
impression that i was going to try
& put effort into this "friendship" ,
willing to "be there for him" & blahze, blah,
but noooo.
i at least deserve some credit
for showing that i cared (to some degree)
i haven't heard from him in some days ..
or something like that .
so fook it! lol.

anyway, i'm tired.
& apparently, stress isn't good for you
so i'm going to try & relax,
carelessly.