new years eve , no resolution .

on this nontraditional new years eve,
i'm spending tonight at 11683
instead of church for new years eve service .

what a relief ,
but i might add
that *someone* made the comment of how
I should be starting the new year off in the right way .

& i agree .
but no one's going
so I'm not either

I'm not really excited for 2009 because I'm not making any resolutions
that are just gonna end up being broken ,
I'm going to let 2009 take its toll
as 2008 did ,

the main thing that I'll actually admit to
looking forward to is the over-all lesson that
I'm going to learn .

I think this year's lesson was basically that
people come & go ,
in & out of my life
for a reason .

and that has caused me to go about everyday remembering that everything happens
for a reason .

what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.
or .. stranger , according to the joker from the dark knight .

I can also say that hopefully i'll be looking forward to making the best
out of this new unofficial "relationship"I'm currently in.
that's an addition to my start of the new year .