Clinic.

I've never been in this situation.
keep that in mind.

never thought I'd end up here,
i feel so out of place
but I'm just like the others,
that made the same mistake.
females all around me,
with no happy or smiling faces.
they're all cold and nervous like me,
do you know how scary this place is?

sitting in my seat,
waiting to hear my name,
my hands shaking as fast as the beat of my heart
and my leg's doing the same.

why am i about to do this?
as if i really have a choice,
something special is growing inside me.
a being with a heart and a voice.

my years are few in number,
more of my dreams i need to fulfill.
who ever thought there's be a price to life?
a simple surgery or a pill?
they try to make us feel so comfortable.
giving us help and support.
there's nothing comforting about this place,
this is my baby you're about to abort!

the majority of this is my fault,
putting a life at state.
what else would you expect me to do?
what other choices are there to make?
feeling relieved from this burden that I'm carrying,
what am i thinking? you're not to blame.
and now here comes the nurse holding a clipboard,
a piece of paper with a list of names.

her head turns in my direction,
and before she begins to speak,
my heart beats a whole lot faster,
is she going to call on me?
her lips move to pronounce
the first three letters of my name
I'm hoping and wishing
someone else is named the same.

and she announces,
that the next patient to see the doctor is. . .

-the girl with a few odd years
-the one that never though she'd end up here.
-the only one crying so many tears.