dirt.

how young do i feel? extremely young.
i took the PSAT today.
that's P as in practice, .. not the actual thing. lol.
i can't take the real deal until the spring.
this being, one of two reasons why i feel young.
the second reason :: my persistent unemployment..
i still haven't received any callbacks :/ & i NEED a job!!
i was trying to avoid falling into a state of desperation,
applying for a job that i ordinarily wouldn't.
i might just have to suck it up, apply anywhere, & look forward to pay day,
despite everything else.

i get to see my baby today, on the job. :)
something i'm really looking forward to.
-i hope everything goes accordingly.

me & my so-called "bestfriend" aren't speaking again,
he treats me like i'm equivalent to the dirt on the bottom of his shoes.

that's how he makes me feel.. like sh*t.
and this time, like always,
i initiated this "mutual silence".
i miss him though :/ but i never show it.
the longest we've *ever* went without speaking was two weeks.
let's see how long this'll last,.. this time.