adam.

I really think that my life would be different if I actually had an older male figure that I was reaLly close to.
Before now, it seemed like I couldn't even have more than one male friend without them thinking of me as more than a friend.
This particular subject popped in my mind after observing my cousin with our uncle, her godfather. He spoils her like crazy. I'm not exactly envious , but I wish that I had a relationship like that or something similar. They just left to go to a redskins game. Regardless of the fact that I'm a cowboys fan, he still could've asked if I wanted to go.
I have plenty of mentors , but none of them are male.
My emotion defense is in action, because I'm trying not to get upset.
On that note, I can say that I've made it thus far without male figures.

*the funny thing is that my dad lives with me,
But you'd never know it.
He's in my life physically, but his actions and words have no affect.
No affect other than negative.
There's no connection, what-so-ever.

I had to completely stop depending on guys, seeing them as compensation for everything my dad lacks.
I can't really say "my father" because not every man can live up to that title.