You're always on my mind.

No school for me, once again.
In addition to the leftovers from yesterday,
I had yet another migraine. =/
I have to write it all down in that journal before I forget.

The climax or "turning point" of my day:
you texted me
& asked where I was ,
why I wasn't at school .
& then you dropped the " i miss you".
I was trying to decipher between each and every possible reason
as to why you said that.
I was also trying to see if that was a "hint" of yours.
The truth is,
I miss you too.
Alot.

It was then and there
that I wanted to express ALL of my feelings for you
to you ,
but something reminded me
that the time wasn't right.
& that in ten days,
you'll finally know everything.
My heart can't wait that long.

I absolutely have to tell you.
I'm getting weaker & weaker.
I've decided to completely ignore the constantly creeping fear,
& the thoughts of things going opposite my expectations.

It's funny how every little thing happens for a reason.
Reasons in which we may,
or may not
know.