one day..

I've decided to...

give up.

It's pointless, I tell you!
Pointless!

I guess he figures that I'll be here forever.
and I know,
and he knows
that I'm not going anywhere.
So there's obviously no rush.
He's not in a rush,
to leave her..
He's also in no rush
to be with me.

So all that's left is
for me to move on to another.
For the time being?
or for however long it lasts.
Let's just hope nothing gets serious.
Let's just hope that I don't force myself to get over you.
This love will then
have to rekindle itself.

I guess it just wasn't meant to be.
That is,
for right now.
I'll try and side with time.
& let it take it's course.
They say life's short,
but for some reason I feel like we have our whole future
(or somewhere in it)
for there to be an "us".
The something-like-a-promise: still remains:
We'll be together one day.

I can no longer
express these feelings to you.
They only seem to leave my lips
to bounce off of the brick wall that you
mentally built
to
shut out
anything
that isn't her.

and that's okay with me.
that's how commitment's supposed to be :)

I just thought that
for me, it'd be different.
but I'm still,
just a girl,
like any other,
outside-the-box of your relationship.

I'll just go back to letting you be
the good friend you always were to me.

I still love you by the way;
Always have,
and I always will.