stuck on you ,

I'm at a lost for words ,
all I can seem to think about is what's currently bothering me .
& in order to feel better , & let it all out ,
i need to spill everything out of me ,
onto here .
..but once again , my words won't collect .
i'm going to try to type of something that makes sense ,

here it goes :

I'm just waiting for the fireworks & explosion of my father's uncontrolable anger ; all because I'm in a crappy mood , I don't feel all that great , & because I'm not all that enthusiatic towards his musical talents .
I guess a part of me still isn't over the friend that came and left .
The one that's gone for what you'd call, "good" ,
which isn't good , ..but must be .
I know that seasons change ,
but I'd rather dwell in only one .
I never wanted us to grow apart ,
and even if it wasn't intentional ,
or maybe ? ,
everything happens for a reason .
& i'll end these thoughts of you on that sour note . =/

I'm trying my best to eliminate those pointless people
that are currently involved in some aspect of my life ,
you know ? , those that have no purpose of being there .
& I'm trying my best to pay more attention to those that do mean something .
the significant ones .
That's what i'll do ,
i'll focus not on who walked out of my life ,
but who's still here currently .

Alright , what else is bothering me ?