Beanza to my heart.

I'm finding myself cryin.
Over a movie, that just affected everything I'd been thinking about.
LIFE SUPPORT.
I liked that movie.
And this whole week has been about STDs, staying healthy, and all these diseases there are out here.
It's sad.
I really don't think it's worth it.
Medication after Medication.
Shots and pain.
Strange looks. (along with the ones I already get.)
Judgement. (same thing.)
There are so many curable diseases,
but hand in hand with that there are some incurable ones.
I get uncomfortable most of the time talking about it.
much less having to deal with it.
I'm sure that if I were to talk to someone dealing with this,
they would tell me the same thing I'm telling myself.
This topic is really serious.
to me that is.
and talking to a guy that's hesitant about getting tested for anything,
but so sure about intercourse...
kinda hurts a Lil bit.
I'm just trying to be safe,
if anything.