insomnia , part 3

It's funny how things never makes sense when ur surrounded by chaos ,
But when the world around u is resting -- soundly , still, calmly --
Ur mind can think freely . . .

I'm trying to force myself into believing that there is a reason for everything .
& that each situation endured holds an underlying lesson .

My life lessons are multiplying as the years go on . .

One of my lessons is here with me at this very moment .
- the reason why I can't sleep or even at like my normal self 100% of the day .

My problems are always written across my face .
Especially when they're towards the front of my mind .
Until I reach that point where I forget about it for a second & try to continue on in life.

It is now nearly 5:00 a.m.
I tried texting him but I received no response .
& why would I ?
Especially when one of us is actually able to sleep .

It draws me to compare & contrast our genders .
When referring to health , women take on a much heavier load then men .
Whenever I'm researching , I always find the same thing .
"This disease is more common in women . Men may have no symptoms ."
My feminism level increases . . .