Sanity.

Changing perspectives from this day forward.
It's been decided by myself that I do, in fact, need God back in my life.
I knew something was missing,
causing me to feel this way,
(something empty needed to be filled
but no mortal seemed appropriate.)

Instead of looking for love from guys,
& instead of expecting the ones I love to love me back just the same,
I need to learn to love myself.

This week has been rather challenging.
-just a little-
between Monday night & Wednesday night.
my best friend's being shipped off to Texas,
simply because her parents no longer trust her.
I also got to see the uglier side of psychotic behavior and anger,
that being MY Monday night.

Today I felt the presence of my long lost joy,
in continuance from last night.
I guess I can say that only one person ruined a piece of my day.
*he knows who he is*
It was my fault for caring,
and my fault for letting him disturb my sanity & happiness.
I honestly don't think he's worth it anymore.
The more I try to disconnect, the harder it gets.
I got a pedicure around six,.
I just hope the paint isn't cheap =/
Took my shower a few minutes ago, so that I don't have to get up as early
tomorrow morning .

I'm going to Chicago in August.
Something's telling me it's going to be worth it.

It's 53 after nine,
I'm tired.
Goodnight.